I Miss You Already

Innalillahiwainnailaihiroji'un, Ya Allah.

You were a really strong lady. Nobody can be as strong as you are. Thank you for fighting all this while for us. Thank you for holding on. Thank you for never giving up. Thank you for being strong all the time. Thank you for the advices you gave to me and all the people around you. Thank you for being the greatest aunty in the whole wide world. I miss you already, Cik Ita. I'm gonna miss going to the hospital just to see you smile. Things are going to be a whole lot different without you here. My days in Ampang are so going to be different. I wont be waking up to mum's voice asking me to go to the market just to buy you food. I'll miss those moments so much. I'm grateful I had the chance to take care of you at the hospital on your last day there. Thank you for holding my hands so tightly. I wish I could feel that moment again. My prayers wouldnt be perfect without you name in it. I promise, although youre no longer here with me, youll always be in my prayers. You have no idea how much I love you, my model. Kita sayang Cik Ita sangat sangat, dunia akhirat. I'll see you again, one fine day. Insya Allah. Please dont forget me because I wont forget you. Thank you for everything, Cik Ita sayang. Kita rindu Cik Ita. "Belajar rajinurajin ok Ya. Cik nak tengok Yaya berjaya." That was your last advice for me. I promise, I'll study hard just for you. Thank you very very very very very much for every single thing you did. Nothing could explain how good you were.

O Allah, please bless her soul. Please love her as much as she loved her husband and her children. Please grant her Your highest rank Jannah. Please let us meet each other again one day. Please provide sabr to her family to overcome this loss. Amin Ya Allah. Amin Ya Rahman. Amin Ya Rahim. Amin Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin.

Cik Ita, kita sayang Cik Ita. Kita rindu Cik Ita. ♥

Hanya Allah saja yang dapat balas jasa baik Cik Ita. I'm hoping and praying to see you again. I miss you already. Thank you for always being with me all this while. I'm going to miss you advices in whatever I do, in fact I miss it already. Take care of yourself down there, my very beautiful aunty. You know that everyone here is missing you so much. Doa kita untuk Cik Ita takkan putus. Takkan pernah putus. 

Al-Fatihah.

Happy Anniversary

No matter what people say about us, I know what I'm doing with you is what we know best. We're living in a world where we are really sure that it is going to be forever. Insya Allah. But still, I dont want to get my hopes too high because anything can happen in a blink of an eye. What I think I deserve to do know is to pray all the best for our relationship. 

Alhamdulillah, we've been together for 2 years+. But I still think that 2 years is not enough to share our ultimate love with each other. Even forever is not enough for us. We still have a long way to go through. We still have lots of memories to be cherished together. We still have lots of time to be spent together.

There's nothing much I could ask than for you to stay with me until my last breath. No one could ever replace you in my heart and in my life. No matter how hard people try to get into my life and to make me happy, no one could beat the power of your love. I swear, your love can't be replaced my anyone else's. 

Happy 2nd Anniversary, my very handsome and loyal boyfriend. 

Dont Give Up

Assalamualaikum :) Hihi. 

Is there anyone who's still reading my blog? I hope there is. So hello back, people? I know it's been ages since the last time I got the time to blog here, I've been quite busy in college. Hihi, so I just ended my first semester, which is like a total mess for me. But I hope it will turn out well. InsyaAllah Amin.

2012 has been a real rollercoaster ride for me, it is full of ups and downs. Everything that's happening to me now, Alhamdulillah I know Allah is testing me because He loves me. Amin. I never want to take this pain seriously because I know I'm too young for love. I admit, I chose the wrong step. I should have let love be like, thousands miles away from me so that I could learn life perfectly. Knowing that I'm having a hard time here never fails to make me feel stronger. There's nothing I could do than to ask Allah grant me enough strength so that I could still be standing so strong, like how I am doing now. 

To those who are having a hard time like I am, please please please remember that it's not the end of your life. You still have a very looong journey to go through. You still have your parents by your side, your siblings, and your friends to be there for through thick and thin. Never think of negative stuffs that will bring you down. Simple, never let anyone brings you down, sayang. Have faith in yourself. Trust Him. Allah is always there. He is always there 24/7. Even when you're dreaming, He is there. He is always there to help you. Seek for His guidance. Dont ever forget Him. 

Love, 

Yaya Johan.

Goodbye August

I hope it's not too late to wish you all happy eid. I'd like to take this opportunity to welcome Syawal with a big smile on my face and I'd love to wish you people Salam Aidilfitri. Eventhough it's too late, and probably none of you would care or give a damn about this post, I'd still would love to apologize from head to toe, from the very bottom of my heart for all the things that I did wrong. I'm sorry for every word that you can't take, for every jokes that might hurt your feelings, and the most important thing, I'm sorry for all my wrongdoings. I ain't did that on purpose. Selamat hari raya 'Aidilfitri, to all muslims on earth. May you all have a great Syawal ahead. 

And not to forget, I'd like to welcome September with an open heart. August has been a real rollercoaster ride, full of ups and downs. As what I've mentioned on my previous post, talking about my mid semester result, it was.. Blergh! I wish I could turn back time, but wish is just a wish. All I'm hoping for now is, September to be better. I'm not hoping for anything good, better than August would be okay. 

Good day, people.

Love, 

Yaya Johan.

When Everything Gets Hard

Hi hello, people! I'm back! 

I have nothing much to say on this post. But I'm having a terrible problem with my studies. I'm just done with my mid semester examination, and guess what, I already got the results for a subject that I think is the most difficult subject I have this semester. Dah perah otak macam mana pun, it is still hard. Plus, the lecturer who teaches like a lion makes me feel like committing suicide, for god's sake. No matter how many effort I've put on that subject, I'd still fail it in the end. It's only midsem, but I already got a feeling that I'm going to repeat the subject on my next semester. How I wish this subject would be better on my final examination. Amin.

Love,

Yaya Johan.